it take ages for me to get my mood back in this crappy thing called blogging, everthing whole lot differents since my last post, i mean… totally different! i aint a teenage anymore, yet i dont feel any wiser ( well im trying to), im a working guy, nothing special with that, what makes it special is i work with many unordinary engineer *you name it*, for the last 5 months, its been a great experience to work with them, i can assure you all of them definetly a smart ass guys, most of all they’re so effin funny, i cant barely stand a day without laughing on their jokes. Indeed, i can imagine a better place to work than this, im blessed, working in an oil and gas consultant with a lot of amazing people, something i can never imagine before, well actually i do ever imagine it, working in an oil and gas industry, but not in a consultant company, who am i kidding, but what do you know, i make it through. i learn some new things about engineering thingy here, about how we work as a team with other discipline of engineer, though i havent had a chance to involve on those project (yet), those ‘ some thing’ is a definitely quite an experience, well of course its quite an experience , this is my first im actually ‘work’ as an engineer, yet i dont feel like an engineer, based on wikipedia, an engineer is a professional practitioner of engineering, yea a professional… it takes tons of project to claimed yourself as an professional, that what im trying to pursue, to be an engineer. But for now, im still an engineer gonna be.
Some things change, some not,,,, what definitely havent change is, i still wrote crappy things on this crappy page, it was crosssed on my mind to reconstruct this blog into sort of educational blog, but what the fuck should i write, i aint that smart, maybe its just gonna make me look like a guy who trying to look smart in front of smart people whether YES, im trying to be smart, but theres a different between someone who’s smart and thoughful, yes its different, a different that i myself couldnt explain it (see.. what a crappy pointless statement i’ve made, feel free to close this page), the point is, i dont wanna makes this blog as a journal, a page to wrote down anything about how hard my day was, who cares about it anyway. What a bullshit, im talking as like i never wrote something like that, bosh!
i dont care if no one read my blog, its just feel good to write, have an outlet for every thought i had
So a few days ago i got another recruitment test, i dont know how to define that day, feel like im kinda blessed (you name it). Here is why, well the test took place in surabaya at 8.30 , well i woke up at 4 am, but its not that i can just woke up and just go, why? because i havent got everything prepared,i havent got the job application form printed, i havent got my birth document copied, etc…thats me, someone who always underestimate something and always wait till the last minute to do something (i believe soon ill figure out how to solve those weakness), i dont know whats wrong with me, maybe im just yet another freak who always trying to find a moment to pump up my adrenalin, haha
So for about a half and hour im doing some document arranging related with the test, finally i leaved my dormhouse at 6.30, i cant imagine that ill make it through within 2 hours left, it tooks about 3 hours at normal time, and im driving like theres no tomorrow, i cant even remember when the last time i drove like that. almost got hit by for few time, but the journey goes on, and miracle happen, touchdown right exactly at 8.30! and all i can say is Alhamdulillah.
Been thinking, being a jobseeker bring me more adventures, friends to share with and stories to tell, and i kinda enjoy it. Might even 1 day end up like a geezer who has lunch business meetings in peeking n all that.. Wouldn’t it be lovely eh. Amin.
got fever since yesteday, quite a distract….definetely wrecked up my day, barely cant do anything, just hanging aorund on my bed for whole day, it just not my scene, being sick makes me kinda melancholy, makes me freakin miss my girl, i believe everyone feels the same way as i do by the time they got sick, you feel like you just wanna spend your whole day with the one you cherish to, your girl or even probably your mom, this kinda moment is the moment you need your family the most, but hey life must goes on with or without your family around you.
As usually, i dont anything in mind what should i write about yet im trying to keep this ‘garbage can’ filled, just got an agreement with my fiancee, ill make a post if she also wrote one, well here it goes, lets try to make a rubbish article,
For the past days ive became such a lame, unproductive, sleepyhead and still.. a-jobless-fresh-grad-engineer, but im still trying to live my life on something i called “right track to pursued the dream” (lebayyy), hopefully it wont last any longer (re:jobless), i believe Allah has designed my future, i`ll always keep that in mind, all i need to do is just keep movin and take every chance i meet, just like eminem said ” you only got one shot, do not misses chance to blow, coz opportunity come one in a lifetime”, he got it right isn`t?
Now define what you called as a ” my dream”? i dont know bout you, but i define my dream as the moment when my parent realize that everything they`ve done for me was worthed, something that i havent done yet. Thou i always having problem with them, making my parent proud of me is always be on my top priority, couldnt agree more, and now all im thinking of to make them proud is by finding a fine neat job, but im not done yet with my dream soon as i get my dream job, well im just a step closer to it, best is yet to come, and i aint stop till i get it.
to KBR, in case you read this, just wanna tell you that you wont have any regret when you decide to hire me, my motivation is clear. become a Real Engineer.
to lyla : your turn, make another one